sexual abuse facing my demons and I won

I have decided to write this hub to let people know how I have changed my life from a sexual abuse victim to a survivor and now a conqueror I have had so many comments on other sexual abuse hubs and many emails from other survivors asking for help advice or just to talk.

I have been so over whelmed by this, even to this day I think the basic fact that sexual abuse survivors know they are not alone in their dark trouble journey helps so much, in this part of the healing process when sexual abuse leaves you to feel like half of your soul had died and to be honest it could be but you must turn that around and heal yourself its not easy I know but if you have a good support network like family and friends and get help that is needed you are on you way to healing yourself.

One way I have healed myself is writing these hubs and helping other people because I know their are millions of people out there like me and just need to be told they are not alone I and you can get help if you don't want to suffer with pain and lonelyness and distrust, life can get better but it takes time. So if you want write a diary or journal or a hub or a blog get your thoughts and feelings on paper sure you might spend hours looking at a blank bit of paper or you don't know where to start that's normal don't forget your mind, body and soul has been damaged by the sexual abuse so it goes in protected mode it shuts of the bad memories and it wont let it out but those memories and feelings are like poison and all that negative energy just makes you feel sick tired rundown and leaving you with ptsd (post traumatic stress disorder) and depression and then you spiral out of control that could attract you towards other vices which do you no good. So you need to get your thoughts and feelings out, go to qualified counselor or a therapist. I went to one as part of my self healing, or go to a doctor they might refer you to ? it just might help you if you give it a chance.

Read some books or go online and read about other peoples experiences you might say well I don't want to dig up the past yes it's true but to be healed it's important to know "hey these people are just like me" and you learn how they coped through it all some of thier advice just might help you. Remeber its up to you ifyou want to healed yes sometimes it can be too hard and traumatic to face it and yes I understand that but its important to take baby steps just don't rush into it alone and expect results first thing but with a loving support network like I had you can do this .

One of my healing journeys was to report my sexual abuse to the police even thought it was over 20 years old now this can be very hard and traumatic to do but in the end it can be good to just get of your chest and get some closure well it was for me. Don't be pushed into it, you must do whats right for you that's the most important thing. Sure you'll feel anger and bitterness and like me I wanted to confront my predator and kick the living shit out of them and yes to this day I still do I am being totally honest here. It takes a lots of guts and courage to report your abuser to the police but once again with a good loving support network it can really help plus if you do it early you might save some other children from the abuse and you may not be the only one that this predator abused.

Eat healthy and exercise this is most important because of the stress and your body and soul is out of whack from the abuse its important to take care of yourself. OK you might be drinking every day or taking drugs this is not uncommon with sexual abuse survivors to hide the pain etc I mean I need not drugs but I used to home brew beer or buy it and drink every day and then all my emotions would flood out in fact one day my young niece remarked why is my uncle trying to kill myself. I'm not saying its easy to quit its not but I don't drink every day I mean I still drink occasionally now and then but I'm not as I was. Again if you want to heal, you have do this I found taking super foods like bee pollen, goji berries, rooibos tea and fish oil helps. I also do yoga tai chi and chi gung mediation and maybe a chiropractor or hypnosis Cd's like I use.There can be many ways to help you heal, you job is to find the path that suits you.

I have come a long way in my journey, days of hiding from my shadow are gone where I can hug my children and especially my son and tell him I love him without feeling uncomfortable and to be able to trust my family and friends is amazing so you can say I faced my demons and I won.

Like I said I'm a conqueror!